In the Land of Milk and Honey!!

Our good byes were said, the our boxes packed, and the drive was made.  We are in the great land of L.A!! Todd ( my handsome boyfriend), Brad (a roommate), Jenni (my former roommate), and I loaded up our two cars and drove the 1700 miles drive straight through.  Switching off and on with drivers and stopping at various gas stations, we made it in 25 hours.  Not bad for a couple of kids with nothing to lose.

It's been an ironic trip for myself.  Growing up as a military kid, I was used to picking up and moving every three or four years to somewhere new.  It was sixteen years ago, that I made the same but opposite drive with my family to Springfield,Missouri from Gallup, New Mexico.  We loaded up the blue Ford conversion van with our Saint Beanard dog, Mozart, our three cats, four kids, and a pregnant mother and headed east towards our new permanent home (didn't know that at the time).  We traveled through ice and snow and drove into our stomping ground in an icy glaze. That is my first memory of Springfield, and ironically, it was the same way I left it. Mother Nature came through the midwest glazing everything in her icy layer. A bittersweet ending to the last sixteen years of my life.  Now, I am on my own!

It is as if we are on a vacation in a surreal way. The four of us are camping out of a hotel room and hunting for survival.  In the midwest, when people say they are going hunting, they think of deer or turkey,but out on the west, we refer to hunting as jobs or houses.  Our goal is to shoot down a place and hopefully an interview or two. So, keep your fingers crossed!  I will tell you that the weather is so nice.  The best part is all the Californians that say this is the coldest it's been in 30 years, and we are walking around like it's the best thing since sliced bread!   

Currently Watching Snakes on a Plane By Samuel L. Jackson, Byron Lawson, Nathan Phillips (II), Candice Macalino, Taylor Kitsch, Casey Dubois, Gerard Plunkett, David Koechner, Bobby Cannavale, Crystal Lowe, Terry Chen, Kenan Thompson, Bruce James (II), Flex Alexander, Elsa Pataky, Lin Shaye, Mark Houghton, Daniel Hogarth, Darryl Quon, Rachel Blanchard see related

It's been awhile since my last post..but the need to write on here lost me. I have been consumed with trying to contimplate (spelt wrong I'm sure) life...and of course xanga will be my medium to explain all to you.

In the last month...I had made plans to move to LA, prepared myself to go and then was thrown through a loop when plans fell apart. I was working on commerical shoots as a production assistant and realized that my degree was a joke...let me just say people laugh and snicker when they hear I went to school for production. My car got totalled by a semi making an illegal turn  and sideswiped my car..thankfully I wasn't hurt..but I am sans a vechile.

In the end, life is smacking me around just to say welcome. I can say that even though I have hit a rough patch here and there I still have money in the back, a man who loves me, and friends that can lend an ear whenever I am in need.  I marvel at what life does to us, and how we react.

I once got an email called the dash story.  A man was at his wife's funeral talking beautifully about her, and he made a comment about how when people see her grave and notice her life from 1929-2006 they should not wonder how she dies or who she was, but how she lived her dash.  It is the time between the numbers that we create our own story and create who we are. And of course the email asked with the great rhetorical question of how are you living your dash.

So in closing, I guess that we all have to eat from humble pie. The battles may be tough and seems endless without a solution, but really it's the way the world works, and the crazy thing is that we aren't alone in our trials, we just all deal with the same emotions just different situations.

The beauty of life!!!!